One of the genuinely hardest things that I have felt in this whole divorce process is how much I have been waiting for the friend, family member, coworker; to say the right thing.  And one of the best lessons I could have ever learned was how to not wait for that- but instead be there for myself.  Its been a very hard journey- there are so many conversations I have had to have with myself to learn that it really is about being there for myself.  I hated to learn it.  I didn’t want that to be the reality- that seems lonely? It feels like accepting that people are disappointing… but eventually it started to feel like calm, freedom, peace, and pure love.  I am here for myself.  It felt like a lesson I would understand and then falter from again.  So I started to journal that way, I started to really learn how talk to the parts of me who were feeling let down so that I could support her, instead of her waiting to be supported by someone else.  I also learned that this unlocked a new level of love that I could receive and give- I stopped feeling expectation and resentment for relationships.  I stopped shaming the part of me that felt those things too, she needs me.  It’s a continuous process, but if nothing else, this divorce has granted me a path back to myself and that’s what you will find here.